the need for speed

just back from skiing. that was the first skiing experience for me, although i slipped for countless times and had my right ear frostbited, still found it interesting.

i went to "wanshoushan" ski resort. it was a newly-built and large one, very near to harbin, about 1 hour and a half drive. so, it's much more convenient than most of the resorts near by.

after a simple breakfast, i went out of the hotel with rented ski equipments, and have my first slip as soon as i armed myslef with the equipments and made a move. have i mentioned im a smart learner? LOL. I learned(i prefer "invented", haha) to walk after the first slip.

there were several ski runs for different skiers, of coz, i choose the beginners' . i try to ski down at the middle of the run. it isn't a great speed when comming down. then, i begin to ski form higher and higher positions. as the speed increase, it became more exciting. the exciting just lasts for tens of second, experienceing the speed.

i planned to take 1 hour skiing and 1 hour photographing, but i spent 2 hours more skiing. ski is more interesting than i thought.

Almsdeed Show

later on, there're quite some almsdeed shows in order to help the people sufferd from tsunami. stars showed up, and gether denotions.

i just heard a news on TV, there's a almsdeed fashion show in Heilongjiang univercity held today in order to help 15 poor student could not afford the traffic fee back home in the vacation. im not sure about this, wheather it's almsdeed or it's a more show. The student in heilongjiang univercity usually came from heilongjiang province, and their traffic fee will not cost so much to held a almsdeed show. and the cost of the show itself maybe will not be cheaper that. so i really doubt about this.

but this remind me something happend years ago. it was a winter night, one of my roommate, who was monitor of the class, came back late, after enter the root, he took out 100rmb and sent it to another roomate - Zhenyu, said "she returned the money back to you, she said she wouldn't get back home wasn't due to lack of money". on hearing this, i knew Zhenyu was about to help a girl on his class silently, although they are not close friends. This made me feel the life is more beautiful than before.

Like a Startled Bird

Zhao Ziyang, the purged leader of CCP died on monday. he was quite a controversial people. offically he was accuesd of "splitting the party" by supporting anti-revolution rebellion, at the same time he was considered as a reformer on both economy and politics.

I hardly know Zhao before I entered to the college, I've got to know him since I read something about the '89 incident. I was still in my elementary school in the year 89, and knew nothing about the democratic campaign, and got my little brain washed by the local media. I was moved by the pure patriotic from the student calling for democracy in 89. I mean the mass students, except those chasing for personal benefits. So, I sympathize with those students, as well as Zhao.

I was very disapointed at what the goverment did after Zhao's death. No obituary by the CCTV news, only serval words was released by Xinhua news. and public memorial was forbidden. and since yesterday, some internet bbs and forums are shutdown.

maybe the goverment was so nevers about Zhao's death, casue the '89 indicent was triggered by Hu yaobang's death -- they are still not confident enough to face their own people.

Happiest Day as an Inter Fan

Last night, i was watch football on tv with my friends. the game shown on tv was Livorno vs Juventus. frankly, i really don't care about his match, im not fan of the either side. what i cared was the score shown on tv about another match procedding at the same time. It was Sapordoria vs Inter.

Inter hasn't been beatean this season, but rarely win. the results lies mostly in drawn. so Inter's not on top of the table. And a series of win is badly needed in order to bridge the gap from juven and milan. But unfortunately, after the 1st half, the score was: sampor1 : 0 inter. I was a little worried about inter, but not that much. because we used to equlized in the 2nd half. at 70 min on the 2nd half, bad news came that inter lose anther goal. At that time, i really don't think we can get the match win, even equlized. But miracle happend, at the end of the match, the commenter said inter has equalized in that match, and it was not over yet. After the add, Jianxiang Huang said, miracle happned at San Siro. Inter had won the math with 3-2. I was excited hearing the news.

Today's sports news about inter reports paised this miracle. and the player, Martins, Recoba and Vieri. it was their goals and sprit made this super-comeback.

"it was the happies day in my career" said Vieri, and I think this's my happies as an inter fan.

Reconciliation

i've got "reconciled" with a former close friend, well, actually i had been a chaser of her since years ago. i blocked her the time i knew she'd got a b/f, who was also a close friend of mine and had another g/f at the same time. days ago i unblocked her from my msn contract list, so we can have a "normal" conversation. I blocked her partly because, just as she said, "out of sight, out of mind", i thought i need time to get myself to get it over.

"I thought we were not going to be friends again." she told me online, after i promised her i would welcome her at shanghai after i go to work in july, " I've never expected to get your welcome there."

"Well," She continued, "I'd like to tell you what i'd been longly want to say to you, since we are friends again...We had been friends for years, I didn't mean to hurt anyone. However, you and me, we are so different anyway, and you'd always been so kind to me, i could not say it out... In fact, i could feel it after the Changbaishan trip. but you told me you didn't want me to miss a better one -- girls wouldn't think this way. I think we missed each other when we considered each other are the best, and once missed, we'll never back again...You are definitly a good guy, you are the prince in many gals' mind. So, never lose a chance again, be confident, you are the best, even if you failed, you'll not feel regreted..."

I apprieciated for her sincere words. Although i did't make any senseful reply, i really felt, at this time, i can come to term with the facts.

I liked this girl, and now i know she liked me too, but i never took the first step, and missed the chance. However, if we were together, im still not sure of the future of us. I had some considerations at that time. First, we're different in many ways, in fact, i cannot understand her well, her style of dealling with stuffs. I might disagree on her in many ways. I don't want to force her to change her style, neither i wanted to change my thoughts. Second, I'd always dreaming a career in other cities, if she could go with me, Im sure she will have a tough life with meat the beginning, i don't want her to suffer. Or, I choose to stay here not to move, this is a really sweet surrender...

I am perfectionism, which makes conderations. these considerations make me hesitated, and hesitation prohibits me taking any action. This is a major weekness of my personality. And I consider her perfectionism too. Once, my high-school teacher, Ms Fu, said to me(she saw though my mind), she thought she(the girl) and i would have made a good couple, because she and i are both perfectionism. But perfectionism made us not being a couple, too.

I like the movie "Beyond the Clouds" very much, especially the first story. Because i find myself in that story.